thoughts and words

Hole in the Heart

Sometimes I wonder, which is the guy who likes me for the real me and not the one they see...

It seems like I am a bad girl who goes around breaking people's heart, yes I do. But when asked have you ever been heartbroken before? Yesh...

And chengze is right. I have not let go of him. Afterall, when I needed someone most by my side, it was him. It was also him who gave me the motivation to finish my competition otherwise, I wouldn't have walked this far. But why didn't he wait for me? Why did he left so silently till I didn't even know it was all over? How can he be this cruel? I just lost my mum and then I lost him too...

My heart was empty, very empty till jk came back into my life. Once again, I thought he could give me the shelter I needed, the shoulders for dependence, the smiles and the rainbows. But it did not last. It was only a dream that ended in just 24 hours.

I felt like a fool being duped by them. But all was willingly??? Is it? The emptiness just got deeper. The trust couldn't be mend. The hole in my heart got bigger, I just can't love and commit with a hole so big...

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry... I think I went overboard trying to follow wind's footsteps... I didn't mean to do what he did to me...

i'm really sorry stupid dumb dumb