thoughts and words

Not in a good mood day

Wasn't really in a good mood right from the start of the day. Woke up at 11+am though I only reach home at 4am+ last night.

Went to Vibes 06 @ BarBlaBlackChic yesterday with cz, alvin, tay and leon. Saw edwin on the way there. Met ai ke, tricia and friends at BBBC. Got to know this damn cute guy who happened to be ai ke's little brother. Bel was damn sexy in her skirt. And there is this damn pervert who keeps wanting to grind me and some of the girls there. Thank god I know more guys there then he knows! LOL! Ended quite late so went home late. Zzzzz

Woke up early cause couldn't sleep due to certain reasons. And so sian. No one online to talk to so chatted with Dean a bit and then sms my buddy. Lol! Thanks dean for the ranting. Thanks buddy for the advises and standing by me, you know I love you the most don't you? LOL! Take care of yourself boy, don't always get sick.

Then went to school for rehearsal. Met up with Julia and her cosplayers. Finally got to see the cute guy she intro me months back. And indeed.. HE IS ULTIMATELY CUTE, cuter than his photo. Hehehe! After that, went for dinner with cz, leon and eddie. Crapped until around 10.30pm then left for home sweet home. Now can't sleep. LOL!

I have a love hate relationship with this song. The lyrics is nice but it reminds me of what I thought, Only Love. I realised only for him, I would do stupid things he asked me to do like asking me to go to his house late at night. Yet there's always this thin fine line that differentiate our relationship from LOVE. It is a friendship love. Do I still love him I asked?

Only Love

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
That's something only love can do
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Sometimes I ask what is that, that I really want? Waste time now by dating guys and wait for the day to come. And so what if the day come? Will it make any difference to our status?

Is it because of that, that I keep dating guys? Not true. If so, I wouldn't have loved wind. Big big head... Why am i thinking so much? Past can never be my future!!!