thoughts and words

The reason - Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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There was a period of time, I was so crazy over this song because each and every word in the song reminds me of him. But nevertheless, what happened in the past, he is my bestie. =)

I overheard this song that day, in Nina's office at Club Momo. Strangely, this time round it did not remind me of bestie but someone else. Someone whom I have stop talking and stop contacting for a few months. I didn't realise how much I missed his thoughtful sms which he would send every night. After all the hectic work and now slowing down a bit, I realised my phone is empty of his sms.

It was weird, how we were like strangers on Saturday when I asked him to help me pass key to albert. It was also weird how little he spoke on Sunday when I asked him things about pushcart. But surprisingly, his thoughtful sms comes in once again.

And it is that which makes me confuse all over again. I think I am still not ready for a relationship...