thoughts and words

just feeling very very lousy now.

woke up feeling so sick...

argued with father this morning.

and yet, am in office working.

just argued with chengze on some issues.

i don't understand. there are some things i simply don't understand.

why when some other staffs can happily say they got family problem, they got this problem, they got that problem, they don't have to come to work.

and their work? throw to me to do.

even when i have family problem, i am so bloody sick myself, i just have to do everything.

just that's because i am corporate communication director and not an executive.

i have already slogged through the roadshows, the cc event even how sick, how weak i was. i still had to put on a strong front forced myself to think when things coop up. Now that the events are over, all i just asked for is only time to recover from my sickness. AND NO. here i am working again. home is like that. work also like that.

where is my life?

mummy mummy tell me please. even that now i can get what i want, i am still not happy. i feel miserable actually. you know why? because i am just plain slogging away.

weiyang told me that "chiong for success is one thing, burning up your life and health until u got no more to enjoy the fruits of labour is another thing"

hahah! true. plain slogging doesn't work. but they just don't get it. you know? all along, this journey i am walking alone and always alone....

i am getting tired of this lonely journey...