thoughts and words

i has been a very very very long time since i last cried... i must have been holding on to it for a very very long while. i don't know why. my mind is empty. i am not thinking of anything. but i just feel like crying. and i can't believe it. lol. i was on 857 sitting at the back, closing my eyes. i wasn't thinking anything, but tears just rolled down. i don't know why.

i couldn't sleep yesterday night. went out to get some fresh air. only came back around 5+ then went to sleep. i think i am getting a little eccentric these days.

i've got my direction. i know what to do. but i am still a lost shadow looking for something...