thoughts and words

today in school was pretty good especially if you are sitting beside your darling. it was quite a fun day in hamsan's class. he's leaving next week. hope to have a hamsan alike faci. after class, took ut. sucks pretty much because the stoopid ibm hates me. did paper ut then. blah. after ut, was really famished, so ate at w4 with cz. then there's this new stall in w4, selling taiwan food. not bad. nice. there's a cute guy working inside too. he's very funny. my noodles was ready but still have to wait for cz's rice. he gave me the wrong order. so had to wait even longer, he asked me to go back and sit, i said no point. since already waited so long, might as well wait longer. then he say good, can accompany him, can see me also. = = he openly flirted in front of other patrons. funniest thing is when cz's rice was ready, i dunnoe what he was doing, but he accidentally knocked the bowls over. so yup. LOL! should have seen his expression. he was so freaking embarrass! keke

so anyway, was suppose to meet sweetie after classes but in the end never meet him. didn't want to go home so early so went to chong pang mac and rot. did a bit of revision, then met primary schoolmate. very long never see him, so chatted with him for quite awhile. then we went over to chong pang market to have dinner and met southwest cdc people. chatted with them abit then went home. took the same bus as him, he sat in front of me. then he turned back and said "serene, you have lots of things in your mind." i smiled. then he asked, what do you want? i simply replied, "happiness" (kuai le)

the next thing he did scared me quite a bit. he held out my hand and asked me to close my eyes. i did and was thinking alot alot. he took his hand out of his bag and placed it on my palms and closed my palms. he said "kuai le zai ni shou ni le" (happiness is already in your hands). strangely, i really felt happy. i don't know why, but you know, thanks. he has enlightened me on some things. happiness has always been around. it was just that i've overlooked it and thought i had never seen it. thanks thanks alot. i understand le.

came back and was chatting with yang. he was telling me about this girl i think he was together with her for a few days. he broke up with her cause she felt she wasn't ready. yet she kept coming back to him. so he was feeling very emotional and all. so we chatting a bit about relationship stuff. then he was asking me "whats a bf to you". is it you must NEED and DEPEND on him to make it feel right? why cant it just be... you enjoy being around him...

frankly speaking, i dun quite know about it too. but i think it is this way: a bf is someone whom can bring me smiles when i'm sad, someone i can share my happy things with, someone whom will help me tink when i'm tired to. it just makes u feel not empty anymore. u noe u are not alone.

then he asked, does your bf does all this for you? i don't know. i just feel that with him, it is a different serene altogether. serene can be someone who's like a superwoman working without emotions. but with him, i realised, sometimes superwoman isn't superwoman at all. she has emotions as well.

the rest, it just brings me back to a blank.