thoughts and words

OMG. once again, the pressure is back. i am suffocating myself. if i can ever invent something, i would probably want to split myself into many parts so that i can play different roles!!!

WHY IS EVERYONE LOOKING FOR ME! and i simply hate school. see how much time i can save, not going to school. i don't understand why everyone is going to school. blah. irritating people only. i guess the only motivation in going to school is to look at eye candies like sly. ;) ok, kidding. IF IT WASN'T FOR DARLING'S NAGGING, i can't be bothered to go. wa, thanks darling. =) so anyway, school is boring. blah. i hate the facis. i hate the classmates. i hate the modules. i only like enterprise skills. can i go back to year 1? still my dearest shifu, choon hou is the best. =) hehe!

anyway, wa! i am really dying le lah. dotbox so many things to do especiallywith jayrius and hj not around anymore. AHHHH. dying dying dying.

WHY JUST CAN"T EVERYONE UNDERSTAND I CAN"T BE EVERYWHERE AT THE SAME TIME! and i bloody need some time for myself too.

irritating irritating. this is getting more and more irritating. i am getting more and more pissed off than ever. BLOODY HELL EVERYONE FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE THIS WEEK!

blah. now i know why i drink. now i know why i like to drink. i am happiest and most carefree when i drink. i can do anything i like, anything i want. i don't have to care about anything. I FUCKING WANT TO DRINK!

blah. sometimes i just wish sweetie is my neighbour. save all the hassle. i happy happy can just go to his house. no need care. why he stay so far! blah.

mummy... are you happy up there? if you are, please bring me along. i am really really tired of leaving my life this way. i am very tired. i got so much things to do and have no time. and no one understands me the way you do. :'(

mummy i am very sad. jona say i have changed. changed until sometimes he doesn't know who am i. mummy, tell me who am i? now that you are gone, even jona doesn't know me, who else can understand?

mummy. i miss you so so so much. :'(