thoughts and words

i think my biological clock is spoilt. and i simply can't sleep these few days. perhaps there are too much things in my mind.

i don't know why or perhaps it is another session of depression? i just don't see the value of what i am doing and i really feel my holiday is so damn screwed. really, or perhaps i've lost the ones whom i can really talk to. but seriously i really find this journey far too lonely.

you know, it has been a long long time since i've met a guy who is so intellectual. apparently, i am still in search of that intellectual guy. fortunately or unfortunately, sometimes i really wished i didn't meet him in yishun mac. of all the guys i've known and seen around our age, you have to admit, he has a very fine brain. =) it was nice going out with him too especially moments we like to argue with each other intellectually even over small things like toys? ok. in simple terms, we are trying to outsmart each other. anyway, i'm pretty sure a much better future awaits him. =) all the best!

ok. and i really think nightlife industry is a very childish industry unless you own the club. i shall wash my hands of these brain-killing things and concentrate on my stupid studies before my brother comes after me and my mum starts to haunt me every night. :x

nevertheless, intellectual guys?