thoughts and words

afterall, i've never once asked anyone to know me or to understand me. and i guessed no one knows me at all except for me, myself and i.

seriously, i felt like the whole world is against me. it is really a terrible feeling. why are you so selfish? because you left without me. they don't even know me and they don't even try knowing me.

it is really a big disappointment. do you really think i enjoy doing such things. i hate nightlife. really. i didn't go there to play. if it wasn't for erwin and viola, i wouldn't even have bothered going down to pavillion. neither did i drink a single drop of alcohol. how can i ever be drunk. i should have being persistent, i should have gone home after st james. i really don't see why i should waste my time at pavillion and look at the stoopid kids fighting. i really find it more and more childish. can't they just grow up? all the stoopid fights. if it wasn't for the fights, i wouldn't even need to wait until 5+am and still waited for nothing. wth.

why doesn't he believe me. why does he think i am like any other kids who likes to club. come on. i don't even club. i really really find these people plain childish and because of their childishness they are affecting me alot alot. and at the end of the day, who pity who? YOURSELF.

you know, yes. it is damn fun going to anywhere on guest list. but it isn't fun witnessing all the stoopid dramas. 5 fights, 1 accident. and because of these stoopid inconsiderate happenings, you brought so much trouble to so many people that you don't even know. at the end of it, do you even say a word of thanks to that person? NOPE! you didn't even notice there's such a person existing at all.

these are selfish thoughts. but have some common sense. everything you do, you must bear the responsibility your own and don't even bother troubling people. if you know you can't do it. DON'T DO IT. this is what i call STUPIDITY and TROUBLESOME.