thoughts and words

just had a haircut. told auntie short. she almost chopped everything till so short when she had this "brillant" idea and decided to try it on me. adah adah. :x LOL! ok... weird's the word.

thanks stella, i look weird. = =

busy busy whole week. went for confluence meeting on thurs, pia down to treasury in cab. met jerome and the people. forgotten that there is connection night that day, so didn't go with jerome. went to clementi instead, to meet cz. We spent quite some time hearing the erm... ******* talking and to think, i actually understand a bit of their language. LOL. unbelievable.

friday, went to school to stone. successfully stoned and smoke through the lesson, liesbet keep asking me why i so quiet in class. not feeling good these few days. i think it's time to visit her. i need a peace in my mind. i was so tired, i really wanted to be irresponsible to my team, so that i can go out and relax a while. almost went shopping with alan. last minute pang sey him again. sorry sorry. to think he was so nice, bought me dinner all the way to attica. =) in the end, dragged myself to the stupid campsite and as expected the people there, i really got nothing to say.

sometimes i ever wonder, why am i wasting so much time on something is empty, something that i can't see. and to think of that, i've always believed in myself and my judgement. and yet now i have to convince myself to stay on. fuck it! i can put the time and effort i've place here in some other bloody company and could have achieved much more. what the hell. i have sarcrifice everything for it and what's more? now it wants me dead? all i asked for is a little freedom so that i can do my own things.

and to shut those two idiots in my house who has been yakking away since forever she left. speaking of selfish, i think this word suits you two more. THANK YOU.

if you ever think serene is so bloody cute, so fuckable, so damn nice, i am telling you now, I AM BLOODY HELL NOT! scram! i am someone with BIG attitude.

hell hell hell... that's lots of fire. *proof*