thoughts and words

u know. i shouldn't watch those dramas alot. ok... crap. i know i can't help it and will keep watching. spent the whole day watching the korean-japan drama, friends. this drama was produced in 2002 if not wrong. i was a fan of it, and i will glued my eyes on to channel 8 last time. 1st time watched, cried like hell, 2nd time round now, my eyes are still wet. LOL. don't know why but just can feel alot.

after that, watched korean-vietnamese drama, Hanoi Bride. if you like gong chan from my girl, do watch this. cause he's in it. and is nice. quite stupid but nice.

anyway, i just suddenly miss him alot again. you know, even though i have dated a number of guys since 16, i never had a bf... ok, had one if you consider him as one, which only lasted for 1 week but i gave up because i don't have feelings for him. up till now, the only ones who gave are to give me a special kind of feeling are jona, wind and HIM...

and funny but i'm not exaggerating, my experience with HIM was really really special and so is the feelings. very very different from what i felt from jona and wind. something you can't describe, yet you are happily trapped in it and wanting more. even if it is 10 years down the road, that feeling will stay with you, and you will never forget it.

ya, i know my reputation with guys. i know you might think "this serene is a hypocrite". ok, whatever. it's not like i want to zfs (zap, flirt, scam). it's not like i want to play with them or what. and if you truly know me, you will know i don't play with them. cause i only love one. and that is HIM. no matter how many guys i date with, no matter how many guys throw their shoulder for me to lean, they can never ever give me the feeling that HIM can give me. whether or not, he is gone or not, i will continue my wait for him and my search for that feeling. but i'm quite sure, only HIM can give that feeling so strong that i can still remember everything that has happened on that day.

-missing him loads-