thoughts and words

still choosing. weird. don't know why when i see him, i just feel like quitting work and guai guai study finish, lead a normal life.

argued with chengze again. current status now: damn shagged. i feel so helpless, so drained, so fucked up and so desperate for $$$. omg... i really feel like giving up everything.

mummy, should i? i really cannot take it anymore. it is too heavy for my shoulders.

.... don't know....

can't think. too tired. i really hate pre-event and post event. my partner is too hot tempered. i can't take it anymore.