thoughts and words
Monday, January 29, 2007
are you fuckable?

Was really damn pissed off by Dr Tan cause she confirmed with that she would register our team as her FYP team but ONLY this morning, then she says she can't take our team anymore. And she spoilt my whole plan, i couldn't go to Sentosa afterall. Damn!

Rushed to school, spoke to Lisebeth and she says she registering our team. =) Ice cream, here I come!!!

Anyway, met Joanna at bus interchange talked about some partnership thingy and some business thingy. We were on our way to Tampines IKEA yet again... This time cz and I went to Courts, spent quite a long time sitting playing Xbox there. Each round, cz can't believe i have more takedowns than him. :p I told you it wasn't tyco. I know how to play games ok? I miss the days chionging gunbound with Vincent, Kenny they all, then played Dota with PL0105A and W36K ppl. LOL!

Then we over to IKEA to makan a bit. We were talking about his princess, then I don't know why, I suddenly ask, what if one day, a girl he is not really interested in, did with him and got pregnant, will he be responsible for it? I asked because I saw a pregnant young lady eating. LOL. Anyway, his answer is YES. He will be responsible.

Surprising. So anyway, we then started talking and thinking, who is "fuckable"? Ok... a bit crude word. But yeah. From our perspective, it seems like alot of the people we know are fuckable. LOL

:x

Are you?

loves from anna-res

Sunday, January 28, 2007
Shopping therapy

Met darling in the noon, going to Marina Square for her haircut. OMG! She is cutting short. And guess what? She cut bob style too. =) Now, that's my darling. LOL!

After the haircut, pop by to Bugis street and the CROWD there is real horrible. More horrible than going to see fireworks. Had to wait 3 traffic lights before I could finally get to Bugis street. So anyway, bought 2 new 3/4 pants which I desperately need as the other 2 gave way.

Then went to darling's house for dinner. =) So long never eat homecooked food. I want to thank chengze and siying's mum for always feeding me with homecooked food. Kekeke!

loves from anna-res

Nobody's Home

Went to office in the morning, was the earliest so did my work while waiting for the rest to come. Before I reached office, was on the bus. Met wind again. I can feel the distance. It doesn't matter anyway, I guess. It has been so so long.

Was in the office till mid afternoon, then left to join siying at United Square. Took lunch, finish survey, check location then went over to novena square to do more rackie while waited for eddy to come. After that, did a bit of shopping, more work then eddy and I went back to office. You know? if there is a choice, I wish i can just stay away from home.

Each time night falls, I don't feel like going home. Because it doesn't seem like a home to me. No matter how hard I try, it isn't home anymore after my mum left. It seems like my mum was the only reason why my home is home. I feel lonely.

Nobody's Home

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home
.It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
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what is love?
what is care?
what is a home?

mummy, life is so different without you...
tell me what is home

loves from anna-res

Friday, January 26, 2007
Pretty Random

I find myself very random. Thanks. Lol!

Ok, anyway, class ended early, so jio tay and cz go makan before going for test later. Really bth the class le. Why is there still school for 9 more days? It is freaking obvious we are outcasted. The only class I like now is Immunology ok? At least got Valentina, Alvin and Dean.

Wasn't in a good mood with my stupid migraine and that cz did stupid things today again and he wasn't in good mood too. So we both ended up arguing also. Luckily it is quickly resolved. Then there is this 20 year old guy who added me in msn for very long, came chat with me. Happily chat with me until as if I know him very well. Then he ask me stead with him, I was like = =. But at office, we had fun "playing" with him. So yup, we were placing bets with Oreos guessing his age, his horoscope, whether he thinks I pretty a not this and that. And the ultimate competition is between cz and siying. Why? Cause they are battling against each other to see who can reduce 5kg first in 1 month. What's the ultimate gift? The loser stands to walk away with a date with my new "bf". YEAH!!!

Ooops. Hahaha! Ok, since that guy so despo, they say i should keep him as my "bf" for fun. LOL!

loves from anna-res

Someone's unhappy

"oh ya... fuck you to both of u siying and serene.
cant say you 2 are bastards or son of a bitch leh.. cux you 2 no lJ?. c*b ba."
- extracted from nard's blog on 22 Jan 07

You know what can I say? You are just a pathetic soul. =) Go ahead and say FUCK all you want cause I don't care. I have not account you to the many troubles you caused for me and how hypocrite you are. Boy, stop being childish. This isn't a game for you to play. From the day you lied, I know what kind of person you are.

Goodbye

loves from anna-res

Random

Yawn... Class is as boring as ever. Trying to do some photoshop. LOL! Was listening to music when iTunes started playing Maroon 5's songs. Reminds me of the days i used to hang out at Cathay's Ben & Jerry every friday, listening to Zero Effinity. I know they like Maroon 5's songs cause they always play their song. Anyway, they have a good vocalist.

Sometimes I ever wondered, how nice it would be when the band on the stage actually dedicate a song to you. LOL! Yeah.

So anyway, finally meet my FYP faci, Dr Tan. So shiok. We are doing cosmoceutical. =) Cool Cool. Don't guess who am I working with. LOL! The confirmed members are cz and siying. Most probably buddy is joining me too! Weee! So long never work with him. =)

loves from anna-res

Outcast us all you want...

Outcast us all you want, I don't care. You know where you stand very well.

Anyway, yesterday finally stepped foot in to RP's sports complex. Not bad, more facilities than I expect. There's a pool:


Overall view from Sports Complex, my block is rather near from it. That is the new canteen yet to be opened.

The basketball court

And there is a handicap lift!!! At the sports complex. Interesting.

So anyway, went to Sports Complex to meet Leon, Julia and cz. Don't know why they want to meet at Sports Complex. So anyway, went there walk one round, noticed that there is an ultimate nice view at the poolside.

After that, proceed to W4's canteen for meeting. After some discussions, Julia decided to leave our team. So Dotbox is now left with Leon, cz and me in the directorial board. I will miss Julia lots lots. Nevertheless, JIA YOU JIA YOU! We are one man down, doesn't mean the whole team is falling. Dotbox will STRIVE!!!

oh man... what is that boy thinking?

loves from anna-res

=)

It is always nice catching up with your buddy.

Haven't been talking to him for so damn long, finally got the chance and time to chat with him. Spoke over the phone for an hour over.

You know what? I missed the days we used to chat over the phone for over don't know how many hours crapping everything.

=) Buddies forever!

loves from anna-res

Thursday, January 25, 2007
Think and think until head want to drop

Having boring immuno class now. Not that I don't want to do my work or what but seriously, I don't have any mood to do at all. Worst is semester is ending soon and moreover, the current problems are not tested in our UTs so I DON'T CARE!!!

Think and think. Yesterday night don't know why, feel like watching movie. So went over to Yishun Ten and watched One Last Dance. I think the movie not bad, very arty farty. Make you think alot.

So yup, went back home and cz came chat with me alot of things. Which made me think even further. LOL! I think in life, alot of things are miraculous. And of all the things, I think the most miraculous thing that can happen is LOVE.

Especially is the feeling is like this...

I was wondering, how is it ever possible that one can fall in love with someone he has never met before.

Or

how is it ever possible that one can fall in love with someone whom he only met once.

Or

how is it ever possible that one can leave such a deep impression on another.

I just thought, how miraculously LOVE can be...

=)

loves from anna-res

Wednesday, January 24, 2007
The loneliness within...

I don't think I would want to stay home the next time I am alone. I will hate the feeling of being lonely. Ever since my aunt and my mum left, this house is so quiet. The guys are out busy with their work and it is no more fun staying at home ever since I started being active in Dotbox. I thought sometimes it is good to slow down, stay at home, rest for a day. But nope, I only get headaches. But I do enjoy walks alone sometimes. LOL! The next wednesday, I shan't stay at home.

Give me ideas where to go while I can study for my UT. And nope, I don't want to go back to school. It simply sucks.

Meanwhile, Kenneth sent this. Enjoy!

Korean DHL commercial

loves from anna-res

Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Just another day

It is another boring day in class and yes, they continue smirking at us. Whatever...

And that very nice Serene Tay pang sei us and never even turned up for UT!!! Girl arhz, is test lehz. Aiyo. Cannot skip class and test, not good for health. LOL! Anyway, after UT, met darling then off off we go to United Square with cz. Met ai ke on the way at Agora, recommended him to go to jason tan's shop.

Oh oh! Got funny thing happened this afternoon in the canteen. I was sitting on the bench waiting for eddie and cz. Then wei qiang came and sat beside me. Then I looked at him and smiled. He looked at me and looked away. Then he turned and looked at me, practically staring. Ok, never mind. Here comes eddie, so chatted with him abit while we waited for cz to get us drinks. Poor eddie, looks so stress. Next semester would be more stressful to you since you are the PC for the new diploma. Jia you. Ok, back to weiqiang. Here comes desmond. He couldn't find a seat so I moved to the other chair of the table so that he could sit with wei qiang. Here's the funny part. Desmond say thanks then don't know what he said to wei qiang. Desmond says i look familiar so he told wei qiang, then wei qiang says i look like "Serene". Then desmond says, "Ohhh!!! look like that leon's fren is it?" So anyway, back in class, wei qiang IMed me. Did you sit beside me just now? I was like = =... YA???? I am Serene who looks like "serene". So anyway, he said I look different with my new hairstyle.

Ok, so I went to United Square after test to find my bosses, Moh and Soh aka MohSoh. Discussed a lot of things, got the samples, came up with new wacky ideas and then alot of teasing. Mr Moh says my hair makes me cute [note to cz: heard that? i am not retard looking!] Then I met Ix Shen and a handsome guy on the way. LOL!

So after US, we went to Marina Square to shop awhile. And on the way there, took some pictures:

Mr PP and me

she wanna kiss me. and guess what? she really accidentally kissed me on my cheek!!!

And then on the way to Marina Square, at CityLink, GUESS WHO WE MET!!!!

Drum rolls.....

MoooMooo.......Muhe!!!

Ahhhhh.... So so so happy to see him. I miss him so much. Come back to RP will you?

loves from anna-res

Monday, January 22, 2007

梁山伯与茱丽叶

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你

为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依

我爱你你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱
永远
不放开
i love you
我爱你你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧
我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着未来

为什么你还是不言不语
不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
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I like this song alot. =)

Thinking back, time has passed very fast. Soon, it is going to be a year. Hopefully, last year's events will not repeat once again.


i miss him :x

loves from anna-res

People, SMIRK all you want


I don't care about you jealous people. Just smirk all you want and see us LOADED with projects and Yusof Ishak.

blahz

loves from anna-res

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Memories

Was trying out my password for my long rotted online photo album cause i just designed a new blogskin. Then guess what? I FOUND THE LONG LOST PHOTO WHICH SHOWS MY SHORT HAIR!!! LOL! damn excited lahz. especially I see all the stupid photos triple Ss (Serene, Siying and Sunniie) took. Memories!!!

Randomly:

Me & Sunniie
Me, Sunniie and Marilyn were at Orchard library when we saw this ad
the CHONGS!!! I miss the days we hang out alot. Especially mumu is in NAFA now
Taken on my birthday. Though my mum was in hospital, i appreciated alot how CHONGS celebrated it for me. =)
My darling and I
At Marina Bay station...
My ALL TIME fav photo.

loves from anna-res

Saturdays are my favourites

Started the day early, going to my uncle's house to pray to my grandfather. Met all my relatives once again. Thank goodness, I am not those very emo person because obviously SENSITIVITY is not in their dictionary at all. I don't know why it seems that everyone of them there except my youngest uncle kept talking to me about what my mum did in the past, like what reunion dinner, then hint so fast 1 year. YEAH YEAH. Thanks. I freaking know that, just shut up!

I am living my life happily now so just freaking stop thinking I am dying without her and without them I can live my life well as well. And the biggest insult was my auntie as usual, gave me loads of "don't know who wore those clothes" clothes. And as usual, I kindly decline it saying that isn't my style. And my stupid dad, always brings it back home. IT IS NOT MY STYLE!

-blahz- ok.....

And then I met serene and siying at tampines interchange. They said that NE thingy at ITE college east was too boring so we decided to skip the 2nd part. Off, we went down to office. Lucky it rained after we reached the office. Phew. Bored bored bored. But soon, Eddy and Leon came. Wee! Then cz came. Then hui ling. And then julia and xinrui. Now missing only alvin. Otherwise, whole team present le. Wahahaha! I never had so much fun before. :x It is so so cool.

Anyway, I looking for 4 girls. Any chio de, please drop me a mail. So anyway, after work, eddy, leon, cz, siying and I went down to VivoCity to take a look at the South West CDC's Youth Rocks. Didn't see any fantastic bands, singers or groups. But I think I saw one of my friend in one of the bands. Can't really see well. But anyway, the youths there are plain siao....

They jumped at practically any songs, slow or fast.
The singer who sang the Killer's song, and his voice is killer. :x
So after the band thingy, we went to fill our stomach. Leon left early, so is down to 4 of us. Off we went to eat at Kopitiam. Nothing much is left but can do. Notice the sticker advertisement there? -hint-
It is done by us. :p
my corn and pork ribs soup
famous fried prawn noodle... siying's
eddy's buddha jump over the wall

loves from anna-res

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Yesterday went out with last semester's classmates to have dinner together. So long never hang out with them ever since Dotbox started. So glad to go out with them again, afterall it was the best class I ever have.

After dinner, Yahui, Hui Ling, Serene Tay, Chengze and I went to Tampines IKEA. Lol! Haven't been there before and since we have time to spare, might as well go there and slack. Ended up, we havoc so much...

Look at the photos and you will know why:

Yahui at the kids' section

We are Hua Chis...

Me and Yahui at the warehouse section

Me at bathroom section

Chengze talking to his princess over the phone!!!

Sleeping beauties, Serene Tay and Huiling
This is a brain sucking machine
I love my bed like this! COSY

Kitchen isn't a man's world
Huiling finally gets a hair wash in IKEA
The SERENES
Serene tay with her signature look
4 naked beauties
Me and Yahui
Chengze is drunk once again
W36K rocks!
Us again
Chengze in the toilet!

loves from anna-res

You know what?



I guess, in life, some wishes do come true?

I got to see her one last time again...

In the photos we last took together.

Yeah yeah... I know I look darn weird. Last year reunion dinner ok? One of the last photos we took together.

My mum, the one who's wearing oversized jacket. =)

I miss her loads. =)

loves from anna-res

Friday, January 19, 2007

Just woke up from a nap in class. Suddenly, I miss my mum terribly badly.

Especially each time when I am sick, I wished there was this someone in place of her will care for me, remind me to take my medicine, make me herbal tea, give me a hug and say I'll be alright soon.

I really miss her alot. I wish I can just see her... One last time.

I'm all alone now without her...

loves from anna-res

I feel so sick. :x

loves from anna-res

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

I'm falling


Have you ever come to a point, when you are walking so fast and suddenly you turned back, you realized, you are alone. No one else is behind you. Because I tried that before.

I know I am falling, but there isn't anyone there to hold me at all. Everyday I think, what if what if what if. And it seems that what ifs are coming. Seriously, I am tired of playing games.

Yesterday spent the whole day and whole night in the office. Did loads of work. Finished up my Snow city project before touching on the 2 D&D projects that just came in. One was due today and the other due tomorrow. So had to rush alot of things. Haiz. Anyway, I bought a new blouse. :x SEXY. That's what I can say.

Eddy came at night, around 10pm. Then we went over to the pub opposite with Malcolm to drink a few rounds. The girls left early except me cause I haven't finish my proposal. After Malcolm left, we went back to our office to slack a bit while I continue my work. Don't know what happened but cz and leon started arguing. Actually it is very sad lahz. To see leon now always suddenly want to argue with cz. I also don't know what happened. Was trapped in the middle especially I am also part of the directorial board. So yup. Thank goodness Mac came so went down with eddy. Breathe a little fresh air.

-hint hint- I WOULD NEVER EVER DARE TO STAY IN OFFICE LATE AT NIGHT! it is freaking EERIE!

loves from anna-res

Monday, January 15, 2007

Retard


I look like a retard with my new hair.

And I am so bloody stress with that Snow City event. Everything went well until things slowly goes wrong.

Worst, only me and cz doing on this event cause the rest busy with other projects and refuse to take on this one.

So what I am ambitious? Because I believe i have the capability to do it isn't wrong.

I WILL MAKE SNOW CITY A SUCCESS! WAIT AND SEE!!


-chiong arh! huat arh! SERENE GO GO!-

loves from anna-res

Friday, January 12, 2007

BridesAsia


Am now rotting at BridesAsia and I found that it is so desperating if you are a single and yet you are in BridesAsia. It's quite sad lahz, going around, people offering you bridal package and then ask you got any bf? My answer is a NO. Lol. Never mind.

Anyway, I'm at BridesAsia promoting my event, Be Amouriced. It is an event taking place on Valentine's Day week. 10 February. So fast, it will be Valentine's day soon and guess what? I hate that day because every year, I would be looking forward to this date and waiting for a date. But nope, I don't have one. Anyway, so fast it is 1 year soon. She left a day after V.day. I can't believe I have done so much in just one year. =( Too bad she's ain't around anymore to share the joy with me.

Happy Birthday mummy!

Collide
By Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
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I don't see much stars out there tonight
But I know for sure
One star is shining brightly
And that is you
Are you shining for me tonight?



really missing him loads :x

loves from anna-res

Monday, January 08, 2007

Drag me out of class please!!!


Seriously, I don't like my class. Bahz. Boring. Now only have 2 options. 1) I stay in office everyday or 2) Give me my prince! :p

Kekeke! Shhh... still dreaming of him. :x Anyway, class is horrible. Ok.

I wish everyday is a weekend. Cause I really love weekends. Saturday went down to office to do some work, had productive meeting and Siying can see her shuai ge. How I wish my shuai ge comes for meeting for nope nope, he's not in Dotbox and never will I want him to be in Dotbox. He should just continue his career. LOL! =) So after meeting, Leon, Eddy, darling, cz and I continued to stay, chat and finish up some work. Then helped eddy a bit on his FYP before we went to dinner somewhere near Mustafa. Then I saw wan at mustafa!!! Lol. Never expect to meet RP ppl there. :x So anyway, yup. Finished dinner it was already 11.30pm!!! OMG! Last bus home. :x Heng caught it. So in the end, darling came over to my house for sleep over.

Next day, woke up at 6am. Supposed to meet Dotbox, Malcolm and Steven at Market street at 8am. As usual, darling and I were the earliest and then leon and eddy were there latest. So off we went pasting stickers. As time goes by, around 5pm, we were all very dead already. Nevertheless, we completed our work and Malcolm treat us dinner at Supper Club. Everything also spicy. Stupid lorz. = = But their tom yum not bad. Next time I want to try their grill. Their western look nice. Many pattern. But their rootbeer float sucks. Ma chiam drinking plain water with vanilla ice cream. Gosh. Diluted root beer.

Reached home quite late and chat a bit with him before went to sleep. :p

Sweet sweet dreams. =)

loves from anna-res

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Just some thoughts


Seriously, I have been thinking... Yes, I knew him mmm.... 2 - 3 weeks ago? And yes, the way we met and knew each other can be considered quite drama and yes, he has left a very deep impression in me, the last time we met. And I was telling darling, how much I wished, I knew him earlier, at least we could have been friends earlier, at least there were more things to talk about. And everyday, I waited to see whether would he be online. I was soon giving up when it was close to a week...

Who could have expected, he came online and asked me out. That night was the most memorable night ever, yes. But it has left me thinking, am I dreaming or was that reality. 4 days have gone and yesh, I am still in my dream. I am still dreaming of him and hoping for a next time or a next step. -piak- I just remembered, there are so many things to be done while I was still dreaming away.

But really, that was the sweetest thing could comfort me after the so many so many events that had happened in 2006.

Yet, I am thinking. Would I have been happier if I never agreed to go out with him? Or would I be happy that I have went out with him?

hmmmmm....

loves from anna-res

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

For him


Remembering the days of how we met
Remembering the days by the river
With fireworks above our head
Each and every details of it
I thought it was a dream too good to be true

Everything was a dream
Every moment of it seems real
But how long will this reality last
Or is it just a day affair
I don’t want it to be just a dream

Because with every touch you gave
My heart just skips a beat
Each time I looked into your eyes
I can’t help but smile silly
I still can remember your touch vividly

I can remember everything of you
I just wished this isn’t a dream only
Because… I want you badly
To be with me for as long as it can last

loves from anna-res

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

The way you look at me - Lyrics


No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word

‘Cause there’s somethin’ in the way you look at me
It’s as if my heart knows you’re the missing piece
You made me believe that there’s nothing in this world I can’t be
I never know what you see
But there’s somethin’ in the way you look at me

If i could freeze some moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I’d like to stop the clock, make time stand still
‘Cause baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel

I dont know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens everytime
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He has eyes that can talk...

=)


when will be the next time?

loves from anna-res

a dream that is reality


When a dream starts to become a reality, I wished it will always not be just a dream. Because, I am getting more and more attracted to him...




i like him. =)

loves from anna-res

FEMEE

eneres
is
weird

MARTINI KISSES
babes & dudes

001: Arty Farty
002: Serene Tay
003: Hui Ling
004: Ernest
005: Muhe
006: Nelson
007: Shawn
008: Twin
009: Kingone
010: Jerome


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