thoughts and words

i just can't understand something. why am i being blamed for someone's incompetency? is it my fault that he doesn't know how to partial his emotions and chunk things out? am i to blame? what role have i played? this is call PROFESSIONALISM.

so what my mum left? did i just sit there and rot? didn't i even chunk out the proposal to meet the deadline? so what your grandma left? didn't you too managed to do the roadshow? was i to blame if he can't do his work well? that is his problem. the blame shouldn't be on me.

i have my freedom to date. i have my freedom to like someone. i have my freedom to love. why can't i choose the person i like. why do i have to be blamed?

i just don't see the link of one's incompetency with my relationship problem! sorry. i will not give up too.

you should know, it isn't easy to find someone who can give you that kind of feelings, who is willing to do that. and i've found one. so i'm not letting anything to stop me.

do you think you are very selfish? i have my own feelings. i am not a superwoman afterall. even if i am or i was, i am sick and tired of being one. all i ask for is someone to be there for me, someone who can make me smile when i'm not, someone who can let me lean when i'm tired, someone who can understand my feelings, and if i can find someone who can give me that, why shouldn't i accept it? why should there be any restrictions? i'm not here to live in regrets.